I’m back from retreat. Glad I went. It was short, but refreshing. Nothing terribly profound, but good to reconnect with God and to be exposed to a different way of worship (i.e. Catholicism and Monasticism). Spend a good bit of time reflecting on upcoming decisions regarding moving and jobs. As well as my own spiritual life and soul. Without a doubt it was good to just be still and in God’s presence.

The silence was the best part… quietness for my soul, a calm stillness. . . . . . . . . . .

I’d been feeling resistant toward God and time spend with him. I think a lot of it had to do with fear. Fear of being changed, of being exposed, of being found wanting…. I can’t say that that fear is gone completely, but it has subsided significantly. Enough to allow me to feel a sense of peace and purpose again, not just hurriedness and compulsion.

I’m working on developing a rule of life. A pattern or rhythm of spiritual practice for my life. I have to do it for a paper, but am glad that I am being “forced” to do so. I think part of my rule/rhythm (I like “rhythm” better) will involve blogging, I think it could be a spiritual discipline for me, we’ll see.

<– Check out the cool cross that I picked up at Valyermo. They have this wonderful ceramics shop and make very beautiful pieces.